I'm sure I'd get over this phase...
Just like I do always!
Its just that I haven't been working for quite a long time [completed 12 months of joblessness & frustration on Jan 8th] and I'm not in my elements.... It might seem weird to some but i am feeling a new kinda Loneliness.... Loneliness even in Company....!!!!! Each time I am with a friend, whoever it maybe [now don't frown buddy... I ain't blaming you] I feel lonely & separated from that person... Like I don't even exist! It Hurts... Like I'm talking to myself or to the wall or sometimes just coz I have no better job than talking! It's been some time now... Some of my friends miss words or even sentences in my conversation. Sometimes I skip words on purpose & no one realizes. Funny No? Fucking Crap I'd say.
By the way, all those who think I'm crazy or boring & that's the reason I am being hurt unknowingly by pals, you're wrong! I hardly talk much & I talk only topics related to the person. Seriously. Its Not That.
So... Is there anyone else who feel like me or maybe ever felt like this?? I wonder if I should be "alone" with friends or be "alone" with myself...
